Does the same thing happen to you?

Do you ever have one of those moments when you are surrounded by noise and people and things going on and you just suddenly get lost in your own train of thought and realize just how lucky you are? This happens to me a lot. Cody and I were talking on the phone this evening before I put Tyler to bed and he mentioned how he has been gone for almost 5 months. It totally shocked me. By this time I am usually SOOOOO depressed and just DYING for him to come home and hold me and for us to get to be a family again. This time around being here in Utah with my parents and his parents and others, it's been such a blessing. I have been able to not get in the self pity mode that I often get into when Cody is gone on a trip and I miss him so. I was then thinking about it after I put Tyler to bed and I was waiting for him to fall asleep. Cody and I were trying to get pregnant for 9 months when it finally happened. I know that's not that long but with Tyler we weren't even trying so we didn't think it was going to take that long. It was really discouraging at times and I just kept thinking, I know we should be having another baby soon. It was so unexpected when it happened and now that I look back on it, it was the perfect timing. YES, Cody is gone and missing out on most of the pregnancy but he gets to be home for when the baby is born. Plus, I am having lots of help from family while I am here and there are tons of small miracles that go along with it. One being something I meant to write in here a long time ago and never did. I will go ahead and share it now.

When I started bleeding and had to go to the ER I was so worried as any pregnant woman would have been. I kept praying and telling Heavenly Father that I totally understood if it wasn't meant to be, but if it wasn't meant to be PLEASE help me be strong enough to get through it. And I was really worried about Cody. It's one thing for me to handle grief and depression when surrounded by family but when you are in Iraq with no friends really and NO FAMILY WHATSOEVER, it makes things a lot harder. When I found out the baby was still alive and for the most part everything looked okay, I said another prayer. I thanked Heavenly Father for giving us the opportunity to be parents again and I again asked him for help. I knew how needy Tyler was with his mommy and I was worried about things like him wanting me to carry him places and things like this. The Doctor said no heavy lifting and um HELLO my kid weights 40 pounds. I was really stressed about it and I am telling you ever since that night when I said that prayer at 3 in the morning while sleeping on an air mattress on the floor next to Tyler's bed, Tyler has sat in a shopping cart almost EVER trip we have taken to the store. Even at places like Target where he would NEVER have gotten in one before. It was the smallest little answer to a prayer but a HUGE blessing at the same time. Things like this make me feel so blessed.

Cody's parents came over today and I just love getting to see them and Tyler misses them so much when they leave. Then my parents were both home later and he had so much fun playing with them and I just thought of how blessed I was to have this opportunity for Tyler to get to know his grandparents because normally he wouldn't have had this chance. Yes, my husband is gone, it sucks and I CAN'T wait to have him home ( I'm horny okay! ) heehee, but many blessing still came from this and I am truly blessed...

Finally Finishing

Okay so here are the last couple of pictures from this last weekend.



Uncle Scottie and Tyler cuddling on the couch our last night there.


This picture is funny once you know whats going on. We were all getting ready to go to the play ground and were being a little neglectful of Tyler. He had been asking for his shoes and I kept telling him that mommy was ALMOST ready and then I would help him. I had gotten them out and set him by the door so he decided to take it upon himself to put them on. He came running in the kitchen shouting "I DID IT!" He sure did do it! Only they were on the wrong feet, he had no socks on and the tongue was completely twisted! haha He was so proud though so we took a picture. In the picture he was saying, "I DID IT!"



And here is Miss Bradlie in her Halloween costume! How freaking cute is that?!?!


Here is my handsome little dude with his Uncle Scotties hat on...oh yeah and he is lifting his shirt up! haha We got int he habit of that this week because he saw mommy showing daddy her tummy over the web cam. He wanted to do it too. We laughed at this picture because I don't know who has seen the Demi Moore pregnant picture where she is naked but covering her privates. My brother Scott used to impersonate her all the time when he was little and would stick out his tummy like this. We just thought it was funny because it looks like that is what Tyler is doing, plus he looks a lot like Uncle Scottie with the hat on. And that, is FINALLY all the pictures I wanted to post. Hope it was worth the wait ;)

Lehi weekend

So I figured out why I was having so much trouble posting pictures. Somehow I had switched from edit html to compose and so when I was attaching pictures it was putting the actual picture on it instead of the code so I couldn't move them! Then I would try and move them or write something and it would end up erases most of the for some reason...LAME! But I am SOOOOOO glad I figured out what I was doing wrong. SO, here are the Lehi picture I have been dying to post. My niece is just so cute that I wanted to share the cuteness with y'all. :)








This first group of pictures are of them on the swings. I LOVE these pictures. I need to frame them in a collage frame or something. Bradlie doesn't smile easy so we had to work for those smiles I was getting in the pictures here. I love the close up one of her looking off to the side! It's my favorite and so going in my portfolio someday.





This next group is Bradlie being a smiley girl. The first picture I am the one holding her and my cleavage was so abundant in the back ground that I had to fuzz the picture so that you actually saw the baby! So distracting...





Here is Tyler and Bradlie playing together and then grandma and Bradlie together.
Alright...my internet is being retarded SO AGAIN, I will have to finish this post later...

365 week 17

Here is last weeks 365 pictures. Enjoy.


Day 1-21

Playing on grandma's bed

Day 2-22

The only picture I took was of my sonogram pictures. But I thought it appropriate any ways.


Day 3-23

Tyler got new shoes! Size 10 1/2!!! My kid is huge


Day 4-24

This is Noah...we were screwing around out side with my camera. My flash would go off and it was so bright that he would say it was lightening. Then he started asking me to take pictures of him and would make all sorts of funny faces. This is one of many, but this one makes me smile the most

Day 5-25

We bought Tyler new fruit snacks. He wanted Spiderman ones this time. We got them home and he was all excited about them and then he didn't like them. I took this picture because he had two in his mouth for about 45 minutes just sitting in his cheek before he finally decided to spit them out in my hand. Haha He looks like he got his wisdom teeth out

Day 6-26

This is a picture of the dirt devil again. I just thought this was very cool.


Day 7-27

Last but not least, kissing cousins. I took this right before the actual kiss.

Just for future reference

Just for future reference on my part, that last week, week 16 was September the 14th through the 20th. I didn't want to forgot and have to go back later and try and figure it out....okay NOW I am off to bed.

365 week 16

I was SOOOOO far behind it took me a while to figure out what days we did what but I got it now and hopefully I can get this posted with only one try because I REALLY need to go to bed.


Day 1

Right before church ( and I wonder why church is always so horrible with him! )

Day 2

We had a funfilled day with Aunt Kristy and NO naps. It went over well though and after dinner Noah and Kristy came over and played. Tyler got wet from the hose and they played baseball. I use the term "play" loosely. You should have seen my kid hold the bat!

Day 3

This is me before I went shopping by myself! WOO HOO It's blurry but I actually liked the way I looked in this one better then the one I posted before.

Day 4

Tyler playing outside. He was trying to move the branch out of the way and it tickles his face.

Day 5

We went to a park and it was right by the mountain and I was able to get this shot right before the sun went behind the hill and shaded this mountain.

Day 6

I have two for this one because I had already saved one as the picture for the day and then realized I had wanted to use a different one. That's what happens when you wait until 3 weeks later to figure these all out. This first one is ofmy sister Kristy and Noah. I liked it because it looks like they are cuddling but she was actually being mean and trying to throw him in the water! haha Sucka! Noah was being a punk and didn't want to get wet so she figured she'd help him out a bit...he's smiling, don't worry.


This one is one of my favorites. We were playing at Kristy's house and I went to the bathroom. I heard Tyler say, "I'm not scared aunt Kristy" which means something scared him. haha He tries reverse psychology on himself but it didn't work. It turns out he was scared of the carebears dolls so about 2 minutes later I hear, "I not scared" or something like that and he was fine again. Kristy was cracking up and I came out of the bathroom to find this. They scared him so he put blocks over their heads so he didn't have to look at them. My kid is so smart! and it freaking cracked us up!

DAY 7

Playing with grandpa never gets old



I have week 17 all done too but since it is almost 12 I REALLY should go to bed. Tyler was throwing up today and so he went to bed late and I really should get to bed in case he gets sick again. I'll write about that some other time because I am sure you are ALL dying to know about throw up! ;)

Where Does the Time Go?

Man...Cody only has 2 more months left and he will be HERE in Utah with us. I am so excited about that. About the time I usually start getting really depressed and missing him like crazy but so far I am just excited it's getting close to the time he gets to come home. I have pictures to post still but the internet has been kicking me off about every 2 minutes or so today so I am not even going to try. I am just going to try and write about this weekend and maybe tomorrow it will be working better and let me post some pictures.

So Friday we got all packed and ready to go to my brothers. He lives in Lehi and my mom was coming with us. We got lunch on the way out of town and it was fabulous. Then we started the 4 hour drive. Actually, it took us closer to 5 because we stopped twice to pee and get something to eat. We got to their house about 7ish and they had pizza. MMMMMMM. Tyler was WAY tired. He had about a 30 minute nap in the car or so and was really tired and kind of cranky. He didn't really want to be there and wouldn't let me hold the baby. If I tried to hold her he would say, "Oh momma, I sit on your lap" I'd say, "You can sit on mommy's lap" and he would say, "Oh Bradlie get down" haha He's no dummbie. It was making me way nervous that first night. By the next day he was doing a lot better with her but still didn't really want to have a whole lot to do with her. We went to Walmart with Lauren and Tyler at first was being a pain. He wanted me to hold him the first 10 minutes or so. Finally he got in the cart and did fine after that. Thank goodness since I can't hold him for long periods of time any more. Besides the fact that he is a heffer, I am just getting to big.

We came home and Lauren made some salsa which was really yummy. Then my friend Loni came over with her husband and 3 year old. I grew up with Loni until we were about 10 or 11 and then she moved to Utah. We were pin pals forever after that. The last time I had seen her was like 10 years ago so it was so nice to be in the same room with her. It wasn't even for a long time but it didn't even matter. It was just good to get to talk with her. Tyler was being a butt when she was over though. It was about nap time and he was so exhausted. He threw a fit right as they were about to leave because her daughter picked up one of his blankies and he freaked out. haha It was kind of funny actually but not at the same time. He ran into the other room crying and then tripped and hit his head on the wall. Opps. After they left we ate some lunch and then Tyler and I took naps. It wasn't a super long one but enough to hold him over until bed time. Then we went to dinner and Amy met us there with her 2 kids. Tyler was being REALLY shy and at one point Lillie started scremaing because Brandon was pulling her hair and it freakedout Tyler and he started balling. My kid is SO SENSTIVE its rediculous. Then we went to KHOL's and I bought the CUTEST pink owl outfit for our little one. I was really excited about that. We were babysitting Bradlie so that Scott and Laurne could go to the movies alone. When we first got there, we got out her very pink stroller and Tyler wanted to get into it. HAHA I said, "YOu want in the PINK stroller" and he laughed. he thought it was awesome that it was pink. So he says, "Yes momma I want to get in the pink stroller" Go figure. So he sat in it until we found the toys and then wanted out and we put Bradlie in and she fell asleep. When we got home Scott and Lauren were still out and by this time Tyler was having fun with his cousin. He actually kissed her a couple of times and was playing with her. I got some pictures that I will TRY and post tomorrow. We didn't get to bed until late and were woken up at 7:30 the next morning which kind of sucked but what are you gonna do?! It ended up being fine though. We had breakfast and then the girls and Tyler all went to a park to play. Then we went to lunch and drove around for a while with grandma. We came back and took naps again and then after we got up we drove to Amy's house. That was so much fun for me and not so much for Tyler. I miss Amy and her family. It was really good to see her brother Mike since I hadn't seen him much since before his mission. I got married and moved away right before he came home. So it was nice. Lillie started crying and it frekaed Tyler out and he started balling. It was bad too. He cried for like 10 minutes or something. I finally had gotten him calmed down and then Brandon came over with a cup of COLD water and knocked it over on me and Tyler and TYler instantly started crying again! It was funny...but then again not. So we were there for about an hour and a half and then came home because it was just getting annoying with TYler clinging to my chest and not getting to enjoy myself a little better. I told Amy she should come to ST. George and I think he would be a little more comfortable then. He wanted to play with Lillie so bad, he is just so shy and was SO EXHAUSTED that he just couldn't do it.

When we got back to Scott and LAuren's I talked to Cody on the phone for a while and they put Bradlie's halloween costume on her so we could take some pictures. It was so CUTE! She's gonna be a lady bug. Then we all goofed off and then went to bed late again. The next day we got up around 8ish and got ready to go out. Once we were ready ( just the girls and TYler again because Scott had to work ) we drove to IKEA. Usually my kid is a monster there. He was surprisingly very well. He ran all over the place and jumped on everything but everytime I said, "Okay Tyler let's go over here now" he listened. It was fabulous. He was rewarded with a train set. He LOVES it. Then we came home and ate and then began the long journey home. Tyler hadn't pooped in 2 days and I was tsrating wonder. We got to Cedar City which is about 40 minutes from my parents and I had to stop and pee. I went to get Tyler out of his car seat and hewas soaking wet. I realized I hadn't changed his diaper since 9 that morning! DOH! Bad mommy!!!!! So I changed him and then just left him pants off since they were soaked in pee. So he was in his car seat with just his shirt on. About 10 minutes before we reached my parents house I smelled poop. I figured he finally went or just ahd gas. I asked him if he pooped and he said NO. We keep driving and about 2 or 3 minutes later I smell something horrible! I roll the windows down and look back at Tyler and there was literately a PILE of POOP sitting on his car seat in front of his diaper. He had a HUGE blow out and it just ALL came out. I called my dad and told him to be waiting outside with towels and trash bags. About 3 minutes before we reahce dthe house Tyler realized he had gotten poop every where and started to freak out a bit. "Oh momma, you clean it please" he kept saying and I was trying to get him to not touch it. It was good times. We pulled in the drive way and grandpa did a great job clenaing up. I grabbed Tyler and carried him to the bathroom and just turned the water on and gave him a quick bath. My dad took out the car seat and hosed it down! haha Good times.

The next day Tyler talked about Bradlie a couple of times. I was chaning his diaper once and he said, "Momma, I want to go to Aunt Laurens" so it was a successful trip. Also, this is going to sound bad but Bradlie smacked TYler in the face once and I was so happy! hahah HAPPY because I got to see how he reacted and all he did was lean back wards to try and get away from her hands. He didn't try and hit her back and anything which relived me to no end. I wasn't really worried about him hitting the baby but I was a little curisous. Hopefully I d0on't need to worry about it any more. Okay my back is killing me and I am exhaused. The weekend wore me out SO much. I went grocery shopping yesterday and by the time I got home I felt so awful. I spent the rest of the day on the couch with the body aches. Not fun. any ways. I am still recovering but feeling much better this today. Hopefully tomorrow I'll be even better. :)